When you kissed me Goodnight

It was a dim, quiet night

when we sat side by side

As whispers of your love

ebbed and flowed like the tide

Of a strong dark ocean

shifting beneath a silent moon

We watched all the stars.

Against the dark skies they were strewn

Like the feelings I had for you,

but I held my tongue tight

Was I very wrong?

Or was this feeling right?



You still held my hand close,

sending currents through my skin

A stifling silence followed,

my heart throbbed. I felt thin

Veiled in nothing but my doubts,

though to you it all seems clear.

I knew I loved you too,

but there was that nagging fear.



I've never loved anyone before,

the way I love you now,

Perhaps it's not love I feel,

but how can tell? Just how?!

And what if you were wrong

and your love turned out a lie?

What if you left me alone,

broke me, made me cry?



I've never been able to understand

what they call love.

What defines it, why is it felt,

how do I know it's love?

And does it sting with the power of fire,

or does it give numb pain?

Is it true, can I trust it to be,

or is it all in vain?



Will my heart be shattered to bits?

Will I lose it all?

Can I soar above the clouds,

or will it make me fall

Into deep depression as I've seen girls

after love has failed?

Will I rise to its challenge,

or will it make me quail?



You slant your face and move in close,

your lips apart. I moved

away in shock and agonized fear,

but the feeling is renewed.



Though you move back to afford me time,

I know my heart's decision.

Your lips still parted, as mine do,

I lean in with determined precision

In a single second, the world has cleared,

a shock jolts me back

The veil is gone and the doubts are cleared,

for my mind is no longer blank.

I don't care what this is, it's too inexplicable for words,

it's something only we feel,

It's like flying, it's like tumbling, electric and effervescent.

All I know is that this thing is real.



It was a dim quiet night, when you kissed me goodnight

And all my doubts scattered to birth  joy

The bugs buzzed around us, there was dew in the air

All I cared for was that feeling unalloyed